Getting A Job...

Getting a job is no easy task. We all know that. And if you don't or getting a job is easy for you, well let's just say I may not like you very much. I have quit 2 jobs already. One @ a department store in the mall and one @ a global retail store (both will remain unnamed). The first was a pemporary job that turned long term. I quit because of my bipolar but that's only part. I havent really identified the other part. Same for the second job except it was long term from the begining. My next job will be different. I will keep it NO MATTER WHAT! I need a job. Everyone does. I am currently looking for a nanny job. I love kids. Always have ever since I was one. So it seems like the perfect way to go. I just have to find one. :( Not easy. But then again maybe if it is hard to find this job and I have to struggle a little maybe I will really realize how much I need to keep it and really commit this time. I can't disappoint my family or myself again. It breaks my heart knowing how much my parents have never seen me actually succeed at a job. I want them to see me do good and be proud of me. I want to be proud of me. I want to really succeed at this. I want to see this through and I want "The Gampe Plan" to be successful too.

The Game Plan

A plan. It sounds so very simple. You say what you are going to do and execute. If only it was that simple. You see I have this theory, People can talk themselves out of ANYTHING. Yes we can and we do. At least I do. I have this problem... I can't just say I'm gonna do something and do it. Nope it, of course, has to be complicated for me. I have to weigh the pros and cons. And 9 times out of 10 the cons win. Even when they don't they are in the back of my head constantly. Today I have decided that I will stop doing that. I will stop telling myself I can't. i will say to myself "I can and I am." because I deserve to actually live my life instead of just dreaming about maybe one day trying to live it. So here is "The Game Plan" of my life from this day on...

1. GET A JOB (Important... Duh)
2. Stop worrying what other people will think of my decisions... cause they are MINE to make. (Harder than it sounds folks...)
3. Go to school for cosmetology
4. Stay in school this time!

I mill probably be adding to TGP. I do that too... I always add things to lists... And i always have to have lists or I'm lost.

Anyway that's it for today. I still don't really know where this thing is headed but I will continue to post everyday at least so I stay on track with TGP. Thanks for reading!

First Blog post

I am not really sure why I am doing this but I want a way to get out my feelings so here goes... My Name is Kayla. I am 19. I have never really finished anything. I am unemployed. I love fashion, doing nails, and The Jonas Brothers. I can't function without music. I will hopefully be attending The School of Cosmotology next year or the year after. I have bipolar and I really let it hold me back sometimes. That is another thing that htis blog is going to be for, helping me overcome my obsticles. Anyway that is my first blog post. Hope you enjoy my little notes. I will be posting daily. Please feel free to comment anytime. :D